Up Again

It’s 3:47 A.M. and I’ve been up for a while. It’s not unusual for me to be woken up by pain. It usually happens every night. I have to get up and take more pain medication. My legs are on fire. I have degenerative disc disease, fibromyalgia, gouty arthritis, osteoarthritis. I could go on and on, but I won’t.  I am not in the habit of complaining about my pain, it is what it is. I deal with it the best I can.

What I was going to tell you is that there are several ways that you can learn to live with chronic pain. For me, it was finding something to do that took my mind off of the pain, to at least lessen the pain so that I could function. Crochet was that something for me. It helps me to deal with the overwhelming pain that I feel. Sometimes my house smells of Icy Hot so much that it is overwhelming for a while.  I was lucky enough to find a pair of compression gloves that help my fingers and wrists. I am able to type better now and there is less pain.  I have my lift chair and my extra large heating pad hooked up and oh boy the relief that I get for a while feels so good. I meant to tell you that I now have 14 blankets made for my comfort bags. I’ll take a photo of them soon and post it. After I get done here, I will go to my chair and start on number 15. I bought 30 bags and if I can get 30 blankets done then that would be fantastic. I would like to get them done by November 1st if I can, so whatever the amount of blankets I can manage will have to do. All I need are the stuffed animals. I have a feeling that I need not worry. I will  manage to get what I need.

My medication is starting to work, so I think rather than crochet, I will go back to my bed and get some more sleep. It was nice talking to you all. I hope to see you soon.

 

Mind Trip

Mind Trip

Welcome the darkness into my soul

Awaken in me the twilight of my being

Do not say that I can not belong

I was born to be a creature of the night

My dreams are the stuff that nightmares

Are made of.

I belong to that unconscious affliction

The one that others choose to ignore

That believe are an occurrence of delusions

The horrors of despair and dread

The angst, the revulsion of perdition

This is my plea, my utopia my reverie

My flight, a figment of my imagination

As I lay here in my padded room

Waiting for my mind trip to begin again.

The Landfill (Earth)

Day 26

The Landfill (Earth)

From the eyes of some Alien Nation

They come across a landfill

Mounds and mounds of trash and stench

They look at each other

Their long tapering fingers

Scratching their heads in wonder

Without the need for speech

They communicate their dislike

To each other and wonder how

Or why earth people choose

To live this way

If they would only listen

It is so easy to live without

All of the trash and stench

This disposable society in

Which they choose to live

Is so unnecessary

This Alien Nation tried so

many years ago to help

this earth colony to no avail

Once again they looked

At each other, shook their heads

And flew back to their home

After all, it is their choice

They know we exist and choose

To ignore the warning signs

Let them live in their

Trash and their stench

Earth Day Acrostic – Don’t Let Me Die

Day 22

Earth Day Acrostic – Don’t Let Me Die

Earnestly show you mean to help

Accountability, no more lies

Return to me my seas of kelp

Turn blue once again my skies

Help me to grow my plains of wheat
Destroy not my mountains so high

Anger me not with your words so sweet

You  have worn out your welcome this time
Endearing to me are words that are true

Allow me a fate that is lasting

Remember that I am all there is

Today is all I can spare without wasting away

Help me before it’s too late

Dare to do what is right

Arm yourself for the fight

You can do it if only you try, Oh please hear my cries   tear

earth

I don’t want to die.

Save

Save

Save

What Makes You Think I Care?

Day 21

What Makes You Think I Care ?

A phrase often heard when I was young

It seemed to easily roll off the tongue

It was meant to hurt whoever heard

The direction of the words observed

By the speaker who had the upper hand

The say so, the rules and strength to grandstand

Words can often hurt more than any other

Things that can be done by another

The words were often meant to scare

What makes you think I care?